He has dreams... I am sort of relieved?

Picked him up from his tuition class and we packed some supper for the family. While waiting in the car for our sinful supper (roti telur with ayam goreng, roti bom cheese, roti goreng, maggi goreng, roti empat segi), he requested for Canon in D to be played. 

He then started criticizing that the version I turned on for him was more Canon in E.. with E major instead of D? Oh, I had no idea at all. Call me music-deaf. Fine, another version? He was okay with the other version and confirmed that it was in D Major. 

It was good to know he enjoyed music. "Mummy, what if I want to learn all music instruments in my lifetime? Can I?" "Of course, no reason not to. You may start with piano and move on... and think of what you wish to be in the future..." 

The next song I selected was Monster - Katie Sky. It was a really nice, comforting song, imagine that someone would be there when you needed help. "Little Jen, you know.. you can be a composer too. Make music, leave the lyrics to others if you wish to. You may be famous 😌". 

"No, Mummy. I don't want to be famous. I just want to be by your side. Be with you". 

That was sweet. But I suddenly had a thought days after the fact that he had mild ADHD sunk into me. I needed to spend more time with him, to support him in order for him to be happy and independent. A lifetime of my own would not be enough, unfortunately. I would just have to catch up! Learn up and keep up with him. 

Today is the 8th day since he was diagnosed, I am definitely feeling better and he is no longer having those weird thoughts. 

"Mummy, I have ADHD. Does it mean I am stupid?" He rarely asked questions like that. Conversation with him had always been somehow positive or at least how he wanted it to be like. This time, it was different. He realized that he came back to the same home but Mummy seemed more disturbed than usual. Gosh, I missed out on my part of explanation on ADHD for his understanding. 

"No, Little Jen. You are just a little different. Let us work together on the differences. In fact, you are a really intelligent boy. You know that and never doubt yourself".